Feeling down today. I keep hoping that I will get a spring-induced manic episode to wash out the depression. My current psychiatrist is a fool, I am in the market for someone who will take my condition seriously. All he does is make jokes and laugh at his own crap during my session. My application for disability based on my bipolar disorder was turned down, and is now in the appeals progress. It is so hard to express to people just how debilitating this disease can be. every day is a fight for happiness. Sarah makes me smile every day, so do the kiddos at work. Without her I would be lost. Keep your fingers crossed for me on that manic episode peeps. I could sure use the energy. I have strep throat for the second time this month as well, which is killing my energy and motivation to do anything useful. Oh well, life goes on I suppose. At least that’s what they tell me.
I need to cancel/reschedule the drs appointment that I have today. I don’t want to call because I don’t want to talk to her. I don’t want to go. I have nothing to say. I’ve taken 600mg in the last two days, which was enough (+ sleep) to bring me back down a bit but I’m angry with myself for things that happened yesterday at work and I KNOW I need to take my lithium more consistently; going to see the doc today won’t really change that.
Going to the Dr. can be rough if you are in the middle of an episode. I don’t even know you and it hurts me to see that you are not taking your meds regularly. Over the years I have come to terms with the fact that meds are a necessary evil in Bipolar Disorder. The doc may be able to offer a new med or some insight that you haven’t thought of. Spring can be the worst time for manic episodes, so please be careful!
A list of words most of us never knew existed. Follow the link to read the article.
- Snoutfair: A person with a handsome countenance
- Pussyvan: A flurry, temper
- Wonder-wench: A sweetheart
- Lunting: Walking while smoking a pipe
- California widow: A married woman whose husband is away from her for any extended period
- Groak: To silently watch someone while they are eating, hoping to be invited to join them
- Jirble: To pour out (a liquid) with an unsteady hand: as, he jirbles out a dram
- Curglaff: The shock felt in bathing when one first plunges into the cold water
- Spermologer: A picker-up of trivia, of current news, a gossip monger, what we would today call a columnist
- Tyromancy: Divining by the coagulation of cheese
- Beef-witted: Having an inactive brain, thought to be from eating too much beef.
- Queerplungers: Cheats who throw themselves into the water in order that they may be taken up by their accomplices, who carry them to one of the houses appointed by the Humane Society for the recovery of drowned persons, where they are rewarded by the society with a guinea each, and the supposed drowned person, pretending he was driven to that extremity by great necessity, is also frequently sent away with a contribution in his pocket.
- Englishable: That which may be rendered into English
- Resistentialism: The seemingly spiteful behaviour shown by inanimate objects
- Bookwright: A writer of books; an author; a term of slight contempt
- Soda-squirt: One who works at a soda fountain in New Mexico
- With squirrel: Pregnant
- Zafty: A person very easily imposed upon
by Carmel Lobello
Agerasia
(n.) A lack of the signs of old ages; a youthful old age
“The agerasia of that fellow is amazing; look at him darting around on those skates!”Bayard
(n.) A person armed with the self-confidence of ignorance
“Only a bayard would walk past that bull.”Bed-swerver
(n.) An unfaithful spouse
“Phil refused to believe his wife was a bed-swerver.”Fard
(v.) To paint the face with cosmetics, so as to hide blemishes
“My wife’s tendency to fard in the bathroom for an hour made us late.”Gobemouche
(n.) One who believes anything, no matter how absurd
“That guy is a gobemouche–I told him that bull would not chase him, and he believed me.”Hansardize
(v.) To show that a person has previously espoused opinions differing from the ones he or she now holds
“Tom hansardized Phil by showing us a letter Phil had written to him.”Inadvertist
(n.) One who persistently fails to take notice of things
“I am an inadvertist when it comes to driving. I run over about 3 things a month.”Killcrop
(n.) A brat who never ceases to be hungry, and was popularly thought to be a fairy that was substituted for the child
“Once upon a time, wicked faeries kidnapped a child and replaced it with an evil killcrop.”Maritality
(n.) Excessive or undue affection on the part of a wife for her husband
“Marge’s maritality was driving Burt insane, so he went out with his buddies.”Natiform
(adj.) Buttock-shaped
“The children giggled when they saw the natiform pumpkin.”Obmutescence
(n.) The state or condition of obstinately or willfully refusing to speak
“The sullen boy glared at his mother in obmutescence.”Plinyism
(n.) A statement or account of dubious correctness or accuracy, such as some found in the Naturalis Historia of Pliny the Elder
“Saying that the moon is made of cheese is pure plinyism.”Quaresimal
(adj.) Said of a meal, having the qualities of food served during Lent; austere, skimpy
“We only had a few pieces of chicken, and after our quaresimal meal, we were still hungry.”Scrouge
(v.) To inconvenience or discomfort a person by pressing against him or her or by standing too close
“I was standing in the elevator when six other people got in, and one in particular scrouged me into a corner.”Yepsen
(n.) The amount that can be held in two hands cupped together also, the two cupped hands themselves
“The pond was nearly dry; barely more than a yepsen of water was left.”From Grammar.Net
Amen.
I think the biggest myth about dieting is that when you achieve whatever pound-goal you have set in your head, your life will have changed for the better. To be smaller, to reduce yourself means you’ll be able to attract the sort of romantic partner you want, you’ll get the sort of job you deserve, you’ll just be more innately happy.
But the thing is, that’s hokum. The thing you get when you lose weight is a different number on a scale. That number isn’t good or bad. That number has no real power at all other than what we assign it. Most of us can assign it enough power that I’m surprised the damn scale doesn’t bellow, “TEN POINTS HUFFLEPUFF!” every time someone steps upon it.
Science Says Dieting Causes Depression and I Am So Not Surprised | xoJane (via brute-reason)(via intoplace)
