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Sat, 30 Mar 2013 13:28:55 -0600

Feeling down today. I keep hoping that I will get a spring-induced manic episode to wash out the...

Fri, 29 Mar 2013 08:37:41 -0600

Feeling down today. I keep hoping that I will get a spring-induced manic episode to wash out the depression. My current psychiatrist is a fool, I am in the market for someone who will take my condition seriously. All he does is make jokes and laugh at his own crap during my session. My application for disability based on my bipolar disorder was turned down, and is now in the appeals progress. It is so hard to express to people just how debilitating this disease can be. every day is a fight for happiness. Sarah makes me smile every day, so do the kiddos at work. Without her I would be lost. Keep your fingers crossed for me on that manic episode peeps. I could sure use the energy. I have strep throat for the second time this month as well, which is killing my energy and motivation to do anything useful. Oh well, life goes on I suppose. At least that’s what they tell me.

intoplace: I need to cancel/reschedule the drs appointment that I have today. I don’t want to call...

Fri, 29 Mar 2013 08:21:39 -0600

intoplace:

I need to cancel/reschedule the drs appointment that I have today. I don’t want to call because I don’t want to talk to her. I don’t want to go. I have nothing to say. I’ve taken 600mg in the last two days, which was enough (+ sleep) to bring me back down a bit but I’m angry with myself for things that happened yesterday at work and I KNOW I need to take my lithium more consistently; going to see the doc today won’t really change that.

Going to the Dr. can be rough if you are in the middle of an episode. I don’t even know you and it hurts me to see that you are not taking your meds regularly. Over the years I have come to terms with the fact that meds are a necessary evil in Bipolar Disorder. The doc may be able to offer a new med or some insight that you haven’t thought of. Spring can be the worst time for manic episodes, so please be careful!

18 Fascinating Obsolete Words

Sat, 23 Mar 2013 16:41:06 -0600

18 Fascinating Obsolete Words:

amandaonwriting:

A list of words most of us never knew existed. Follow the link to read the article.

Snoutfair: A person with a handsome countenance

Pussyvan: A flurry, temper

Wonder-wench: A sweetheart

Lunting: Walking while smoking a pipe

California widow: A married woman whose husband is away from her for any extended period

Groak: To silently watch someone while they are eating, hoping to be invited to join them

Jirble: To pour out (a liquid) with an unsteady hand: as, he jirbles out a dram

Curglaff: The shock felt in bathing when one first plunges into the cold water

Spermologer: A picker-up of trivia, of current news, a gossip monger, what we would today call a columnist

Tyromancy: Divining by the coagulation of cheese

Beef-witted: Having an inactive brain, thought to be from eating too much beef.

Queerplungers: Cheats who throw themselves into the water in order that they may be taken up by their accomplices, who carry them to one of the houses appointed by the Humane Society for the recovery of drowned persons, where they are rewarded by the society with a guinea each, and the supposed drowned person, pretending he was driven to that extremity by great necessity, is also frequently sent away with a contribution in his pocket.

Englishable: That which may be rendered into English

Resistentialism: The seemingly spiteful behaviour shown by inanimate objects

Bookwright: A writer of books; an author; a term of slight contempt

Soda-squirt: One who works at a soda fountain in New Mexico

With squirrel: Pregnant

Zafty: A person very easily imposed upon

by Carmel Lobello

nevver: Basically

Sat, 23 Mar 2013 16:39:21 -0600

nevver:

Basically

The 15 Most Unbelievable Words in English

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 09:20:04 -0600

The 15 Most Unbelievable Words in English:

amandaonwriting:

Agerasia
(n.) A lack of the signs of old ages; a youthful old age
“The agerasia of that fellow is amazing; look at him darting around on those skates!”

Bayard
(n.) A person armed with the self-confidence of ignorance
“Only a bayard would walk past that bull.”

Bed-swerver
(n.) An unfaithful spouse
“Phil refused to believe his wife was a bed-swerver.”

Fard
(v.) To paint the face with cosmetics, so as to hide blemishes
“My wife’s tendency to fard in the bathroom for an hour made us late.”

Gobemouche
(n.) One who believes anything, no matter how absurd
“That guy is a gobemouche–I told him that bull would not chase him, and he believed me.”

Hansardize
(v.) To show that a person has previously espoused opinions differing from the ones he or she now holds
“Tom hansardized Phil by showing us a letter Phil had written to him.”

Inadvertist
(n.) One who persistently fails to take notice of things
“I am an inadvertist when it comes to driving. I run over about 3 things a month.”

Killcrop
(n.) A brat who never ceases to be hungry, and was popularly thought to be a fairy that was substituted for the child
“Once upon a time, wicked faeries kidnapped a child and replaced it with an evil killcrop.”

Maritality
(n.) Excessive or undue affection on the part of a wife for her husband
“Marge’s maritality was driving Burt insane, so he went out with his buddies.”

Natiform
(adj.) Buttock-shaped
“The children giggled when they saw the natiform pumpkin.”

Obmutescence
(n.) The state or condition of obstinately or willfully refusing to speak
“The sullen boy glared at his mother in obmutescence.”

Plinyism
(n.) A statement or account of dubious correctness or accuracy, such as some found in the Naturalis Historia of Pliny the Elder
“Saying that the moon is made of cheese is pure plinyism.”

Quaresimal
(adj.) Said of a meal, having the qualities of food served during Lent; austere, skimpy
“We only had a few pieces of chicken, and after our quaresimal meal, we were still hungry.”

Scrouge
(v.) To inconvenience or discomfort a person by pressing against him or her or by standing too close
“I was standing in the elevator when six other people got in, and one in particular scrouged me into a corner.”

Yepsen
(n.) The amount that can be held in two hands cupped together also, the two cupped hands themselves
“The pond was nearly dry; barely more than a yepsen of water was left.”

From Grammar.Net

Amen.

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 15:24:22 -0700

Amen.

nevver: Back

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 15:19:49 -0700

nevver:

Back

true that.

Sat, 29 Dec 2012 04:56:01 -0700

true that.

"I think the biggest myth about dieting is that when you achieve whatever pound-goal you have set in..."

Sat, 29 Dec 2012 04:51:45 -0700

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I think the biggest myth about dieting is that when you achieve whatever pound-goal you have set in your head, your life will have changed for the better. To be smaller, to reduce yourself means you’ll be able to attract the sort of romantic partner you want, you’ll get the sort of job you deserve, you’ll just be more innately happy.

But the thing is, that’s hokum. The thing you get when you lose weight is a different number on a scale. That number isn’t good or bad. That number has no real power at all other than what we assign it. Most of us can assign it enough power that I’m surprised the damn scale doesn’t bellow, “TEN POINTS HUFFLEPUFF!” every time someone steps upon it.

”

- Science Says Dieting Causes Depression and I Am So Not Surprised | xoJane (via brute-reason)

12 Enjoyable Names for Relatively Common Things

Sun, 16 Dec 2012 15:02:20 -0700

12 Enjoyable Names for Relatively Common Things :

nevver:

box tent : the plastic table-like item found in pizza boxes

jamais vu : that feeling of seeing something for the first time, even though there’s nothing new about it

paresthesia : that tingling sensation when your foot falls asleep

grawlix : the string of typographical symbols comic strips use to indicate profanity (“$%@!”)

caruncula : the small, triangular pink bump on the inside corner of each eye

badinage : another word for playful banter

rhumba : a group of rattlesnakes

dringle : to waste time by being lazy

agraffe : the wire cage that keeps the cork in a bottle of champagne

wings : those back flaps on a bra

rasher : a single slice of bacon

purlicue : the web between your thumb and forefinger

more

Makes me think of a good night of the dictionary game (to all my Mize peeps out there)

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Sun, 04 Nov 2012 11:12:47 -0700

Things I Never Learned In High School

Sun, 04 Nov 2012 11:10:13 -0700

dontcomecryingtome:

How to do taxes

What taxes are

How to vote

What political parties are

How to write a resume/cover letter/anything related to getting a job

How to write a check/balance a check book

Anything to do with banking

How to do loans for college

How to jump start a car or other basic emergency things

How to buy a car or house

but I’m so glad I know the fucking pythagorean theorem

thank you

nevver: Yugen

Thu, 01 Nov 2012 02:43:22 -0600

nevver:

Yugen

2AM ramblings

Thu, 01 Nov 2012 02:40:29 -0600

Hello all! It’s 2AM and I feel perfectly rested, so I am taking the opportunity to update the old blog.

I saw my Dr. yesterday for a follow up on my blackouts/dizzy spells. The blackouts have all but stopped, but I still have the spins. She says it is “vertiginous migraines”. This means that every time I have a dizzy spell (several times a day), I am actually having a migraine without the headache. Fun, eh?

I am still on bed rest/couch rest For another 2 weeks. The doc just doesn’t feel like she can sign off for me to return to work yet. I am bummed about that part. With my being in a depressive cycle, being home alone all day isn’t exactly good for the old bipolar brain. Being home is also bad for the finances.

I feel disconnected. I am doing silly things like carving a pumpkin and making vegetable soup from scratch (the soup was greatness BTW). I am not supposed to be doing activities as simple as the above, though. I must rest. Rest rest rest.

My depressive episode is still hanging on. My feelings of self worth have gone out the window with this illness. I Have had some pretty dramatic med changes lately, as the Dr.’s have tried to figure out my blackouts. It’s leaving me a bit shaky. All I can do for now is to take it easy and try to keep the depression from sneaking in too much.

I am happy that they have found out what was making me pass out (hypostasis) which means that when I stand up, my blood pressure drops to the ground. It has been as low as 90/50. They actually are HAPPY when my blood pressure is high, which seems strange. Oh well.

I still have love, if nothing else :). Sarah is super supportive and wonderful as always. I couldn’t do any of this without her.

Ta for now.

Happy Halloween all!

Wed, 31 Oct 2012 13:40:47 -0600

Happy Halloween all!

"Oppressive language does more than represent violence; it is violence; does more than represent the..."

Sun, 28 Oct 2012 10:16:30 -0600

“Oppressive language does more than represent violence; it is violence; does more than represent the limits of knowledge; it limits knowledge.”

- Toni Morrison (via mindovermatterzine)

greencatsmeow: Nothing to be afraid of!

Sun, 28 Oct 2012 10:13:21 -0600

greencatsmeow:

Nothing to be afraid of!

amandaonwriting: William S Burroughs

Fri, 26 Oct 2012 16:18:06 -0600

amandaonwriting:

William S Burroughs

"She lives the poetry she cannot write."

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 17:51:17 -0600

“She lives the poetry she cannot write.”

- Oscar Wilde (via nevver)